my own piece of mind

Wednesday, April 28, 2004

helo(o.o)*

good afternoon.. haha supposedly to be studying maths now but then got distracted haha.. kk.. just wanted to see if the images are still there & then carried on to load up more images hope all of them stays.. anyway..
the maths is giving a big headache k told myself to at least study the whole of chpt 1.1 to 1.3 argh but then dun think my determination will carry me far tho hee hee.. *scratches my head with a sigh* dun wanna da pao this module, better not coz i will sure get my ass out of the sch if i were to retake it again nxt yr.. humph..

anyway was jio by my godSis to go to japan this yr end, haiz dun think i can save up a few Ks within half a yr sorry some other time ba.. anyway was so tempted by her.. so i sat down my crack my brain real hard use a parang and chop it half.. haha.. and decided that i will go for a graduation trip if i were to graduate from NYP.. i will take a trip to japan, if not venice.. after i finish studies in poly and b4 i get into the NS.. humph really can't make up my mind if i should go to Japan or venice haha.. if i go to Japan on the May i will be able to see Sakura blossoms phew tt will be so nice, but Venice is a place i had dreamt of going for a long time and dun think i will be able to catch any holidays after my NS.. will be striving hard to set my career path..so haiz.. anyway still quite some time to go.. so i'll save up lotx of $Ks then decide on it when the time comes.. ??any companion to go with?? dunno.. maybe will go alone.. will be quite relax and a time to refresh my self haha.. kk won't mind if anyone wanna join.. tell me k.. then we can plan to go together.. haha.. so looking forward to my graduation trip wOohoO.. .. ..

alright WAKE UP RaymonD!! got to do wad i had to do now if not all dreams will go into the trash bin.. haiz.. kk better bury my own head back into the books..

Here I Am @ 4/28/2004 01:37:00 PM

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

helo(-_-);

haiz.. oki quite busy today but not with my studies..
this stupid blog is making me go crazy.. for the whole of today i had uploaded all my images all over the web almost every image hostingplace i can find.. haiz but even so none of them makes my image stay there forever.. suXiee.. oki now i upload it in the yahoo photos hope it will stay there forever.. sorry folk my bibio isn't ready yet, can't be bothered to upload all the images of my bibio over to yahoo photos yar haiz..

oki other then doing stuffs to this blog of mine i had did some drawing for a sis in church humph.. quite a test of my skill was a pencil sketch of a sengarang, indonesia.. din really have a photo to follow either.. srew everything from my mind.. hee hee.. i think it isn't bad first time i drew a landscape from mind haha..

oki still going berserk about the images.. if anyone of u knows where to upload images plz tell me hor..

kk i think i hurt my neck when i was playing basketball just now.. humph it hurts when i twist my head around.. kk should get some rest.. haiz.. hope tt the images will stay... plZ..

Here I Am @ 4/27/2004 09:44:00 PM

Monday, April 26, 2004

helo(0.0)

hi peeps..
just gave a new look to my bloggie..
hee hee.. give some comments on how izit.. and then do tell me if u peeps can see tt images..
i love the top image alot huh..
"true beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder"
"true happiness lies in the eye of rayTopiA"
haha
hadn't blog for quite some time le huh..
anyway had finish all the commone test now left with 3 other exams paper and they are:
+internet programming
+MATHS
+JAVA programming
exams! argh.. anyway is my study week this week but seems like i had study nutZ but just dun let my exams results be nutZ.. hee hee..
oki anyway my frenz at work are gonna celebrate my last paper with me hahaa.. we gonna club after my last paper "u guys ROX" wooHoo..
haha.. k but then b4 tt hope i really did well if not i will sure turn the whole place there upside down.. hee hee...

oki. dunno y dun really have the momentum to carry on blogging so let be like tt as for now.. will get back to it soon..
see yer babes, bitches, dudes, jerks, gays & lesBbYs soon.
hasn't ate anything for the whole of today shall start my food hunt le.. .. ... ...

Here I Am @ 4/26/2004 05:50:00 PM

helo(o.o)

oki i accidentally deleted this post away.. so gonna repost this test n my result up again..

Heart of Glass

What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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Here I Am @ 4/26/2004 02:05:00 AM

Friday, April 23, 2004

helo(@.@)

presentation today was quite messed up coz quite impromptu
dun think i did well this time round.. anyway its over so it shall not bother me any longer..
kk ..
went shopping on the day when nicoll highway fall..
phew.. guess wad i m so lucky .. i was at goldenmile complex just before the nicoll highway fall..
phew.. saw all the ppl running out of goldenmile complex then and i was like at the army market there buying my dunks.. haha.. yep my dunks are fake but paid $55 for it.. anyway.. got my baggie there also.. argh.. my mum says tt it looks like those bags carried by fishermans.. *dissapointing* then went to DeEn's bro-in-law shop to get my little secret stuffs HAHA then was pushed with a pair of jeans.. well anyway.. quite regretted getting those stuffs but then ok lar.. not bad lor..
was regretting coz i exceeded my budget and then it had caused me to missed out on the t-shirties and i saw some real cool t-shirties at a IMP shop at hereen.. argh.. i will get it soon .. and i saw the pair of earings that i want also haha.. oh yar i pierced my left ear and there are two of them.. hee hee.. the first pierce was cool and i like the feeling haha..
but then the second hurts!! ouch.. if the 2nd has the same as the first wan then my whole ear would had all been pierced up hahaha.. anyway it had been hurting lately.. humph.. oki then din mange to get a whole new set of shirts and stuffs.. will complete my makeover next month.. anyway my haircut isn't really done well also.. haiz.. will make sure it is done well next time.. will get a pair of spectacles, couple of t-shirties, earings and my HAIR.. ..

really feeling tired today.. haiz.. anyway my colleagues they all seems to be quite dissapointed as i wasn't able to go clubbing with them on the 7th.. can't help either.. i got exam on the next day!! my tuition job got terminated so no $$ to come by during tt time!! sry guys.. will see about it on JUNE/end of MAY.. k.. .

kk i got java lab test tml.. and i have not done a single shit about it.. better get it digging.. tt's all the blogs folk.. till next time i come again.. see yer take care drink more water whether are very humid recently.. take care dun fall sick during this time.. jiayou and gambatte for all the exams & test

Here I Am @ 4/23/2004 12:56:00 AM

Monday, April 19, 2004

helo(o.o)

minor makeover completion: 37%
oki raymond's in the house hitting the roof..
oki had been very lazy to blog this few days anyway..
it isn't the holidays yet ppl are tokking about where to chiong after exams le.. haha
cool...
anyway went to play basketball today with gary guy, kenny guy and wenwei guy..
oki not bad tho.. played from 10 to 2 in the afternoon..
so now i look just like any of those nigers out there
humph will be going out tml to complete my makeover haha..
so hope tt i'll be able to get real cheap and cool stuffs tml...
stuffs i'll get tml: dunkies, shirties/t-shirties, jeanies, baggies... & some other stuffs hEeheE *chUcKk|eZ away*

got this thing below from somewhere (and my poor memory bank tells me i had forgotten where it was taken from)

-EverFree-
Wrapped in the winds of spring
Imagining distant dreams
Through the break in the clouds they've all disappeared
The autumn sky causes my heart to ache
The sea in the winter is so cold
To the point where i feel i'm falling into a dream
Time kept passing

school term will soon be over and after that we will have to go on our seperate ways le.. i'll have lesser chance of seeing u, izit good or izit bad? i'm not sure, one thing for sure is that no matter where u r my heart will be there.
"i miss ur voice on the phone.... ...."
where has the love gone? i dunno.. .. ..

Here I Am @ 4/19/2004 07:44:00 PM

Friday, April 16, 2004

helo(~_~,)

haiz..
recently alot of ppl feeling depression huh..
haiz..
i m feeling like a clown, stupid pile of trash, .............
anyway.. thz minDy will remember wad u tell me ..
haiz..
u be strong too..
oki.. i would say this is the "RIGHT" time of the year too be feeling so shitty..
anyway juz receive my pay yest..
so the management ppl isn't tt heartless afterall.. huh..
:p
hee hee..
scolded them like shit the other time hehe.. sumimasen
will be going to change the whole shit of me..
hope to have a new start together with the new change..
hEehEE i will not reveal much on how i wanna change :p u peeps shall see when it comes
(^.^)
i'll no longer be a prisoner of yours... tho i still loves u..
the loves remains but the heart is wearing its' armour ...
the dreams u give me are fake and i shall not hold on to it..

Here I Am @ 4/16/2004 12:40:00 PM

Thursday, April 15, 2004

my prayer:

father in heaven,
O' lord save me for the water have reached my neck.
for like peter i had denied my identity in you.
i had sinned greatly.
for the cruxification that you had beared for me.
O' lord the pain that is most unbearable to man was to shame on the son of god.
for what was the truth was said to be blasphemes.
and now i carried the sins of believing in what the world sees and do,
have mercy on me lord.
for i had deserted my sheeps and wander far from my shepherds,
only you O' my lord knows what torment was to be layed in front of me,
even so now i believe that during those times u were by my side.
for the people might had dissapointed me but not you my lord.
have mercy on me for my eyes are blinded,
i carry a sin that made me shy away from you,
a sin that blinds me from many who had cared and shown me love.
O'lord please forgive my sins and lift me up from all this on eagles wing.
it is you the almighty god who shall judge me on the day of judgement so let no other judgements pulls me down again my lord,
i pray and asked that O'lord for the heavy sins i carry please forgive me.

psalms 23:
the lord is my shepherd i shall not be in want
he makes me lie down in green pastures
he leads me beside quiet waters
he restores my soul
he guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake
even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death
i will fear no evil for you are with me
your rod and staff they comfort me
you prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies
you anoint my head with oil my cups overflows
surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life
and i will dwell in the house of the lord FOREVER. Amen.

O' lord let this psalms follow me through my life again..
for i shall remeber that you are my shepherd and i shall not be in want.
i praise you my lord of the love you have for me is far my desirable than any riches on earth,
the love that embrace even your own enemies.
O'lord i dunno how this prayer will change me but
O'lord sure i know you are listening,
for i was given the authority to pray in your name, as i carry a identity from the almighty father JEHOVA.
angels rejoice on the return of a lost sheeps feast will be thrown for the reunion of the father and his son.
for this son knows what he has comitted.
i give thanks to you my lord,
and i pray all this is your name, Amen

Here I Am @ 4/15/2004 09:35:00 AM

Monday, April 12, 2004

helo(o.@)

hmm.. didn't get to sleep again last nite..
but luckily managed to finish my asp proj within one nite coz of mum's tender BRANDS CHICKEN ESSENCE.. ;p
hee hee b4 i starts to dwell on the proj i was warn tt alot of error will arise (*SCaReZ mE*) but then other than the login page others are still fine managed to debug out the prob quite fast.. maybe i m too pRo haha..
yest was really tiring.. other than the proj i still had to work full shift tt day ShUX ..
hee hee yest was the first time i took an hr break from work and went to a emergency escape stairway to SLEEP haha... was darn tiring especially the afternoon crowd.. grr..
hmm... other than tired is still tired and alot of more tiredneZZ to come.. . ..

muscle tired
brain tired
soul tired
heart tired
eyes tired
fingers tired
legs tired
toes tired
neck tired
arm tired
.................

recent thoughts:
~~~moon & venus~~~

Here I Am @ 4/12/2004 07:50:00 PM

Thursday, April 08, 2004

helo(o.@)!

hiaz early in the morning and i still haven't slp..
well not intending to sleep at all le..
anyway yest was a real bad day.. .. ..
argh rather not think of it..
anyway got my specialization course.. hiaz dun wanna tok about it either..
its the greatest dissapointment
tml isn't any better either.. ..
or rather it is tml tt made yest such a pissed off day..
1. maths quiz in the morning
2. sem proj submission & presentation
3. asp if possible to upload by tml so tt i won't need to go back to sch just to upload it..
i'm going to faint..
wad am i doing now:
listening to ayumi hamasaki ~ Duty
a top hit album in the yr 2000
just finish with the Semester Proj prog..
now intending to start on my asp..
on top of all those pissfulneZZ
i'm blinded on wad's ahead of me now..
the pressure so strong n my major-in-course is so SUCKy argh.......
i dun ask for help but i ask for death..
now playing: ayumi hamasaki's - End Of The World
"fairy tales are nv true.."

Here I Am @ 4/08/2004 04:19:00 AM

Monday, April 05, 2004

helo(o.@) b|oGgiE

phew another weekends passed..
full of tiredneZZ & injurieZ
well nvm about the detailZ not having the mood to tok too much about it either..
went to work on sat afternoon to receive a few big shocking news:
1.mAdDoG still in the outlet!! kAoz..
2.next big news, pay will be delayed by a month which means pay for march will only be given to us by the end of april...
kAoz
WTF kind of management is this.. wad am i suppose to live on during this month.. are the management ppl without heart or are they without their brains!!?? wad a brilliant idea of theirs to postpone pays... fuX!!
i just can't stand this.. those management ppl can be thinking of where & when to set up new cafe branches but they just can't get more accountants so tt our pay will be given to us on time.. !! really zok dulan!!
grr...
"relaZ...."
oki ere is something funni.. a new guy working in our outlet.. heEhEe got to work with him during the weekends.. well he lives at hougang so sunday after work we will both walk our way to the bus stop.. then get onto our own bus .. when i reach home tt nite he msg me n told me tt he had been followed by a gay.. lol.. worst still is a thailander and nxt hellRaising thing tt gay is just sitting right nxt to him.. wOooHooo .. haha.. well anyway he told me tt it wasn't his first encounter le so.. haha u should be very tactfull in handling this kind of stuffs huh...
hee hee will get to hear more from him when i work wiith him again next weekend.. wOoHoo..

oki i think tt's all for tonite..
~~~if this is another chance~~~

Here I Am @ 4/05/2004 10:37:00 PM

Friday, April 02, 2004

helo(o.@)

argh april fool day seems boring huh..
hEeheE played a childish game in one of the tutorial room today haha..
won't mention about tt.. ;p
oki reached home and challenged my bro to play basketball.. hee hee..
today's game is mine.. i rulZ..
i won first game 11 - 5,
and i throw him like a trash into the rubbish bin on the 2nd game haha a 11 - 0...
;p sry bro..
humph din manage to finish the 3rd game 4 - 0 of coz i'm the one with the higher score..
hiaz reason y we din finish it was because i swung my arm too hard and the old injury on my right shoulder is back.. how careless.. phew lucky thing was tt it isn't a dislocate this time.. the pain is acute but din last long the bone manage to find its way back.. argh.. now the muscles around it is feeling weak n painful.. hiaz third time since my first dislocation last yr may... humph still remember the pain very very clearly.. ['>_<];
alright.. i'm slacking a little while doing my e-comm revision hiaz.. it is hard & giVinG mE the BeRserKy feeLinG.. :(

oki guess gotto head back to the revision again le..
hope i dun have to hire someone to bang me!! *stress*

Here I Am @ 4/02/2004 01:31:00 AM