Friday, July 30, 2004

helo(o.o)

alright i had sent my application thru e-mail and he had called me mins after i sent out the e-mail... .. .

erm quite sad.. i was a little nervous on the phone n din manage to speak well with a firm tone.. thats the bad point another thing was they are dealing with linux platform hiaz.. and i have no foundation on .php nor .cgi humph.. that makes it real bad u see it is like wadeva he ask i juz say i dunno like tt and even worst.. i dun really have a web design portfolio... all that are in my portfolios are graphic design and flash animation.. hiaz.. ultimate sad now i onli had one thing to show and tt was the VRzoo web page done last yr (* pathetic) .. if i were really handed a proj by them i will work very very hard to show tt i m worthy and up to the standard.. i dun wanna miss out this chance.. oh god... pls help me.. i really dun mind if the first proj pay is ultra low.. i'll work real hard!! throw all my sweat in it.. meanwhile i have alot of readup to do.. but i m still giving thanks to my dearest father in heaven.. it was really wonderful to be choosed out from my fellow attachment mates and the boss is a very friendly, helpful and open person..

this blessing is too much than wad i had forseen i juz pray real hard tt oh lord continue to guide me.. i commit wadever i m to do into ur hands to ask that ur will be done.

arh.. my heart is still thumping very fast now.. am i happy? dunno... still nervous? dunno... excited? dunno... ... ... maybe it is happiness

oki better get back to work le.. two more weeks to go after today.. gambatte ne raymond..

Here I Am @ 7/30/2004 03:38:00 PM

Thursday, July 29, 2004

helo(O.O)

i'm reporting live from "treasure island" some part of my dept in IBM..

anyway here i received a news and i m reporting here the very instant..

i m now feeling far more than EUPHORIA.. maybe extraOrdinary EUHORIA.. or enormous EUPHORIA,, or even EUPHORIA EUPHORIA.. ..

ok.. this is wad happen.. my dept head juz came up too me and told me that her brother-in-law has a multimedia company and they deal with networking and web-pages.. so she asked if i want to be a designer for them, mainly in designing web-pages.. oki now she had told her brother-in-law and had send me a e-maill for me to contact them.. .. is this a blessing in disguise?? such a big present for me in a bored company like here.. all right i'm delighted and very elated and feels a great EUPHORIA.. oh no.. OH NO.. i'm too happy tt i m going to cry.. OH NO..

haha anyway thanZ alot to u, my heavenly father.. for all this grace, blessing and happiness u had given me.. i love u dearly..

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Here I Am @ 7/29/2004 11:42:00 AM

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

helo(-_-)

~~~my romance with a stranger~~~

i don't know what i am feeling.. .. ..
i don't know what you are thinking.. ..
i hate this feeling..
i am lost or maybe just too tired to see the right way out..
i just can't feel it there like i used to..
i think we are just in a guessing romance..
i am still unprepare for this............................ sorry................................

you don't know what you are feeling.. .. ..
you don't know what i am thinking.. ..
you don't know how to go on from here..
you can't feel it there either..
you avoid meeting up..
you are not sure of our romance..
you apologized for your unsure answer.......................................................

we don't know what we are feeling.. .. ..
we don't know what to expect from each other.. ..
we don't know who each other is..
we lack the sense of security from each other..
we don't know where we are heading..
we had our own paradise in mind..
we apologized to a romance with a stranger......................................

rayMonD, "we are still stranger after all"

Here I Am @ 7/28/2004 10:11:00 PM

Monday, July 26, 2004

helo(O.O)

another monday at the office... bored? nope.. happy? nope.. tired? nope.. then.... ..... ..... i dunno haha..
anyone a fan of william hung???? saw this piece of news over the net wondering if it is true!! check it out

humph sad & glad to hear this news...

oki counting down to 20 7/12 days = 494 hrs = 29 640 mins = 1 778 400 sec till the last day of work..

the past weekend wasn't cool.. it was kinda normal and tiring.. humph..
i was on sound duty on saturday then uncle came to try out a stereo play hahaha.. was cool we connected another ts/slr cable (* if i'm not wrong should be this huh.. oki admit i wasn't paying much attention to wad he was saying) oki is a phono jack to cannon jack cable, to the synthesizer then into the equalizer.. then we pan both the channel to each of the speakers.. the effect was cool.. kinda of like a semi surround.. too bad sub-hall is too pack if not can put a surround speaker liao huh.. : p but the current active speakers aren't bad tho.. juz a little of feedback.. OH NO.. forgot to ask my uncle if there were something wrong with the power in the sub-hall.. hiaz.. anyway has to remember and ask him the next time i sees him.. oki..

oki my mentol is here le.. and most of the ppl are here so gotto start work.. humph..

ByEiZ..!

Here I Am @ 7/26/2004 09:34:00 AM

Friday, July 23, 2004

helo(o.o)

this is kinda true for me... tho not evey single of them may be true...

proud to say i'm a september

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious
and serious. Loves to teach and be taught.
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses.
Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive.
Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has
deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy.
Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved.
Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but
prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties
expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has
great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very
Stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and
abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing
personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental.
Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal.
Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom.
Rebellious when restricted. Loves
aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.
Gets angry really easily but does not show it.
Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends
but rarely shows it. Daring and
stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes.
Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic
on the inside not outside. Superstitious and
ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show
emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. sexy.
Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive.
Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic.
Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others.
Loves to serve others. Easily angered.
Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness.
Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves
to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves
attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners.
Loves home decors.
Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste
but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate
to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention.
Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves
people's problems. Brave and fearless.
Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and
generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good
memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others.
Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in
a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed
and highly motivated. Sharp! thoughts. Easily
angered. Attracts others and loves attention.
Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and
mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation.
Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves
to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding.
Sickness usually in the ear and neck.
Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing.
Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling.
Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many
children. Hardworking. High spirited.
Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced
by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots
of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating,
tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the
best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves
to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative.
Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends.
Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt.
Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up.
Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions.
Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand
conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to
fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless
excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has
reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned
about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly.
Approachable. Emotional temperamental and
unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and
sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never
forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary
things. Guides
others physically and mentally. Sensitive and
forms impressions
carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others
equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and
sharp. Judges people through observations.
Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves
to be alone. Always broods about the past and
the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely
person. Waits for friends. Never looks for
friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone
to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to
be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and
caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has
leadership qualities. Knows how to console
others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high
pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises.
Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when
provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and
cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts.
Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream.
Talented in the arts, music and defense.
Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against
illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty.
Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make
friends .

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful,
cautious and organized. Likes to point out
people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn.
Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool.
Kind! and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed.
Loyal but not always honest. Does work well.
Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous.
Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to
look for information. Must control oneself when
criticizing. Able to motivate oneself.
Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive.
Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly
shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings.
Very choosy, especially in relationships.
Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves
them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner
and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend.
Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly.
Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers
easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care
of what others think. Emotional. Decisive.
Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts
and literature. Touchy and easily jealous.
Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair.
Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses
confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to
fathom. Thinks forward.
Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp
thinking. Fine and
strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors.
Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive.
Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less
talkative but amiable. Brave and generous.
Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is
a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give
up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves
to be alone. Thinks differently from others.
Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not
appreciates praises.
High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love
and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in
relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High
abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps
secrets. Not able to control emotions.
Unpredictable

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic.
Active in games and interactions. Impatient and
hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations.
Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves
praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved.
Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short
tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic.
Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions.
Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

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Here I Am @ 7/23/2004 09:56:00 AM

Thursday, July 22, 2004

helo(>_<) bloggie..

tml is friday again then tt will leave me with 3 more weeks to get thru this torture hiaz.. counting down from 576hrs = 34560mins = 2073600sec oki then i'll say bye bye to them and walk straight ahead without even turning my head back.. i m getting very sick of tt place.. argh su_ ...

anyway had my first NYP'ian guest at home juz now hee'hee" and tt person is "xueling", came up for work stuffz..

oki.. anyway i'm very fed up with work today.. they actually took us interns like servants sia.. i m so fed up with their attitude.. humph.. and those glares and looks i get from others.. oki "i have enough of all this, i m just here to learn not to be used by u ppl, i dun deserve all this from u all..! if u ppl think u all r really so good then teach us instead of making us do some stuff which u ppl think u all shouldn't be doing.." ARGH.. luckily i onli have attachment once.. argh..

oki another thing to grumble and complain about.. on my way home from work yesterday, i got down at simei MRT station like i usually did.. an ah pek was walking in front of me then when almost approaching the station gates that ah pek slowed down then stopped.. i thought tt he forgot to take out his ez-link card so i walk pass him... at tt very moment i heard a "KAPUUII" wtH.. he just spitted there..!!!!!!!!! -_-!? wad's up with him can someone tell me.. argh.. tt's inside the MRT station ok.. not at some grassy area.. argh where is his considerations!!??

going crazy huh? nope not yet.. received my sch fees the day b4 was $300 bucks.. hiaz.. there goes my attachment pay.. will have a ultra tight budget for nxt month le.. cutting down on entertainment which i m going to doubt if i have time for any of them.. had decided to start working at sim lim sq at the start of Aug. then will go for sunday first svc and will see about joining my mum's cell instead of the youth cell, for the time being..

will have to forego movies: "brotherhood", "king Author" (* did i spell correctly!!??... ), "i-Robot", "shi mian mai fu"... tt's alot of movies..

:'- oki tt's about it. nothing hapi to file.. byeZ..

Here I Am @ 7/22/2004 08:29:00 PM

Sunday, July 18, 2004

helo(-_-)"

hee hee tt last post was a CRAP post requested by Mr LTF hee hee" oki.. after publishing tt post my whole blog went blank erm dun ask me how come coz i dun even know wad happened (* would blame it on LTF.. hee hee.. the server banned me from showing such a crappy post haha).. anyway.. manage to get back everything other than losing all the blogs addy.. argh well..

oki.. something bad happened last week my right ear got blocked then got to go see a doc hiaz.. i m a half deaf person now.. so sickish (-___-)* funni thing was on thu morning it was raining cats n dogs and i was slepping (* sleeping when i m suppose to be getting ready for work... ;p ) on my left side, i can't hear a single thing so i thought it hasn't rain yet so common sense and all languages u could find in ur very living senses will tell u the weather is cool and u should be sleeping.. so i carried on sleeping till i turn towards my right then i heard the large thundering sound of nature cries.. argh i was tt DEAF..

alot of stuffs spunning in my head recently hiaz.. troubles and problems they never give us a second of rest.. oki anyway.. tt's it

Here I Am @ 7/18/2004 06:23:00 PM

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

CRAPS

Here I Am @ 7/14/2004 09:01:00 PM

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

helo(o.~)

reporting live from my worstation via e-mail to blog "I NEED CHOCOLATES" argh! will any angels throw some chocolates down to me.. humph!!?? hee hee~ had this deep craving for chocolates juz after lunch orrgh*! i'm still not feeling well tho.. grr..

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Here I Am @ 7/13/2004 04:11:00 PM

Monday, July 12, 2004

helo(o.O)

wad a weekend to have passed n a BluEy monday.. hiaz.. was so tired during work today anyway helped out my bro with the sound during youth service and as usual the speakers is always giving us the big headache feedback & more feedbacks wonder where the problem lies humph hope tt everything gets well before August (* tt's my turn for duty (^..^) )

hee hee.. my uncle went to help out with sound for the first service of a new borned church.. he was so tired out erm actually i was suppse to go & help him but i kind of forgot opps hee hee.. :D anyway he is getting my bro n i to help him as he set up sound system for 'EN QUN' church's youth service.. they are going to have their youth service, god bless their youths..

MONDAY! 8am dragged my own feet away from my bed, drown myself into the basin to wake myself up, hiaz another monday! this is how bad when day goes by seems like a routine.. walk my way to simei mrt station took a train to expo, got down wait for my frenz at the control station. hope to get to workplace before 9am but tt seems like once in a blue moon. reached my workstation put down my stuffs setup the thinkpad start it up, meanwhile go to the pantry and get a cup of hot milo drinking it slowly while chatting with frenz n every few seconds people will pass greeting u with a bright smile but u dun really seems to know who he or she is! but smiled back to them anyway.. then go back to my workstation check my lotus notes, start my msn messenger, check my e-mails, check out my yahoo calender.. then greeting "MORNING" to everyone in tt dept who comes in later (* basic courtesy huh!? makes it sounds more like the waiter in ajisen ramen restaurant), try to work on something or act as busy as i could be to avoid being arrowed with some paperwork, 12pm dragging lunchtime to 1:30, then back to workstation helping out with some paperwork which always seems to multiplies as u try to finish it, 6pm packed it up and set off for home.. argh wad a boring day. maybe an event in the office may spice things up a little huh!? psst tell u something "I M LIKE A BLUE COLLAR ZOMBIE"

alright the following time is to spent for god n myself.. humph heard much about the book "purpose driven life" and it had been on my shelves collecting dust maybe it is about time i flip it open..

Here I Am @ 7/12/2004 09:40:00 PM

Friday, July 09, 2004

helo(o.o)

hi me back again saw something very FUNNI here to share with u ppl:
http://www.pinkystar.com/pds/contents/solo/200401/ttws3.wmv

gurantee plus chop sure ROFL wan.. .. enjoy it

Here I Am @ 7/09/2004 11:25:00 PM

helo(*.*) sick & happi

back to blog.. had just fix up my desktop tho not all the viruses and worms are deleted but seems like it is safe to use hee hee..
anyway had change the template of my blog, the previous wan had really gave me a big big headache especially when i had tried so much servers to upload my pics but none of them works, hopefully this template will be gd.. din took me too long to choose this wan (*winks) it is clear, simple n has my fav colour..do give some comments on its look.. hee hee..

hadn't really sit down to blog for quite long le oki tonite i'll settle my butt on this seat till it glows burning red. hee hee..

oki here goes i'm still having my attachment at IBM still feels like i'm a exploited banghla..(* (".)~(.") looks around:"plz dun let anyone in my dept see this") i'm paid low & exploited highly, u know wad some other attachment colleagues & me came to conclude 'if u want ur company's production section to be efficient and cheap, employ attachment students' hiaz.. (* hee hee felt the itch on my mouth.. going get something to bite first) oki bitin n typin now.. anyway i'm sick today erm.. not very sick tho but got a MC so din have to work today ;p but yest when i went to the doc, the first word from him was "hao jiu bu jian" ('long time no see' literaly translated to EngLand) -_-' do u think i wanna see u so often? tho i really wants the MC.. (* hee hee) anyway i din have a fever but my throats itch n feels giddy so the doc thinks tt i m alrite (*tho he din really say tt out but i could fig tt out, coz the way i ans his qn makes me sound very alrite -_-") anyway the next expression from him is like i m seeing him for the sake of the MC.. argh.. alrite tho i really want a day off but i m really not feeling well k doc.. anyway he gave me some pills n a MC.. & i still wanna say 'I M NOT FAKING SICK!' alright.. my buddyBro will be booking out tml n everyone's going clubbing at Music Underground but i'm sick.. :( had my share of clubbing last fri with the other attachment students went down after work to phuture and was damn slammed there then proceed to devils bar.. oki to say the real stuff i dun like devils a single cents at all dun enjoy the crowds no to the music no to the bouncer either hiaz.. argh clubbing will be out of my dictionary le.. anyway i'm FINALLY starting on a proj handed to me for like how many monkey months ago.. felt so bad but started working on the story board le.. (*hee i heard, britney spears ~ everytime `WOOO.. tt song is so nice.. i'm going to get tt album..! know wad i had been waiting by the radio side hoping to here anastasia's ~ left out there alone.. if i din get tt song title wrongly, i love it ULTRA much!!)

-the following is something personal, skip it if u feel uneasy reading it-

went to sunday church service last week, that day was unlike any days when i go to church especially after my spirit left wandering in the wilderness. anyway during the worship holy spirits starts pouring into me it was like wad the F*** is happening to me i felt very uneasy i can't feel anyone around me my eyelids just refused to open next moment i feel myself flying through the great mass of land and to the sky together with the hymns of worships i reached before his throne tho i dun even really dare to believe it, glaring lights tt i daren't even lift up my head.. at that point memories came pouring in, right from my frist step that lands on the ground of this church.. i was being reminded of a vision that i left long ago, it was beautiful, wonderful.. and just as he said he will be our light in our roads ahead he taught me how to walk the road in front of me.. at that point i know very well that wad i m doing now isn't bringing me anywhere in life i need to make a decision now on wad to do, where to go, i can't be so self-centered anymore.. i decided to stop wandering in the wilderness tho i dunno how to strenghten the spirit from the souls desires but i know some how he will make it possible for me.. and i prayed the sinners prayer again.. after tt 2hrs of svc i was still thinking of wad would be of me in days to come, and i came to realize something he is EL.. .. (* dunno how to write down the other enlightenments n spiritual knowledge) i'll remember one thing no ONE is perfect not even christians so wad makes a christian diff? seek god n get the ans from him, i could juz say i learnt it thru such a bad way.. oki going to stop here.

oki tt was a long post :)
anyway recently i was offered a part-time job, hiaz still deciding on whether to take it.. tho it really is impossible to live on the attacment pay but it will tired me out flat if i take tt job.. had to confirm it by this sunday hiaz.. wad should i do? maybe not picking it up.. (*humph) alright tt's wad bothering me for this weekend.. alright i m getting tired n perfect 10 is still not playing the song tt i want to hear (* hiaz :( sad )
oki guess wad!? i finished the whole loaf of bread!! argh.. n tt's my dinner..
better get some rest le my butt is burning warm ;p .. BYeiZ

Here I Am @ 7/09/2004 07:24:00 PM