helo(-_____-)"
very TIRED argh!! humph.. kena tua.. thought there was NAPFA test today.. but then when reach there.. there wasn't any examiner to be seen argh.. oki.. that can be a good news.. at least i can take it on another day :p gives me more time to train. but then since there isn't the NAPFA n neither do all of us wanna go back to the lab to slack in front of our COM.. so instead we tried out some of the stations.. i manage to pull 4 times for the pull-up.. (* thank god nothing went wrong with my shoulder.. it was perfectly fine..) got the best 09:48 for my shuttle run which gives me a gold.. a best 225cm for my standing broad jump gives me a silver.. and then is the 2.4km humph still dun believe i got a 13min..!! argh.. dun believe it.. but at least i pass.. it falls in the bronze range.. argh.. hope my seat and reach and the sit-ups could get me at least gold or silver if not i m a gonna.. i dun wanna go for the 2 months before BMT.. .. keke after tt went to play basketball with my lab mates, n LTF.. hee hee.. was a fun wan not stressful match haven't played such a relax fun match for quite some time..
oki anyway.. took bus 72 home as usual.. upon reaching hougang central!! a group of sec sch student board the bus.. oh for heavens sake can't they be more considerate for the other passengers..!! they are talking so loudly as if their fren is at the far end of the parade sq.. worst still they are tokking dirty at such a high vol.. argh.. n even worst there was this lady with quite a good figure.. and then this guy was so obvious trying to get very close to her.. eh.. xiao didi grow up lar.. ppl too old for u lar..!! argh for the whole journey from hougang i was so disturbed.. ad worst still the gal sitting in front of me were tokking to the phone with a "EVERYONE LISTEN TO WAD I HAVE TO SAY WITH THIS PERSON I'M TOKKING TO" attitude sia.. so loud i could hear it thru my head phones.. my fish leong music was drowned by all the unwanted noices in the bus.. :(
alright am very tired tired tired tired.. gonna stop here... last sentence "FYP VERY SIANZ"
helo(o.o)*
ohHoooHOo..just came back from my uncle house.. had been a great weekend hee"hee.. had a fun day today with my little cousin haha..lol he ultimate xiao jie.. he injured his little feet coz he din keep his toys properly and so happened to stepped on it and got a very little cut.. hee"hee' and the whole day he is saying "pain pain", "put medicine" lol.. for every minute he will cry and say that 2 phrase.. haha" can't tahan him.. still muz hold his little feet up for him argh! lol.. the future xiao shao ye..
was bombed with the qn of marriage last nite.. argh!! humph.. i dun really wanna think about that but i did think of it b4 & marriage isn't the kind of guy's thinking for guys of my age.. i did roughly plan as when i will wanna get married but then nvm if i dun by that time i m quite ready to stay single also hee hee.. planned to get married when i'm 27-30 after my NS which is 23 then have some time to settle down in my career and savings.. then wad kind of after marriage life do i want!!?? dun ask me that, i'll let me wife-to-be to think of that then i fulfill it.. hahaha" that's to make life easier for both also.. if both have diff views of the life they want after marriage then doesn't tt make it complicated?? one wants things to go this way but the other wants it go another way..!! heard something from cell yest about the wife settling in with the guy's family.. hee"hee makes me scared also haha.. better be able to afford a house once i get married..!! :p
aunt's gonna get married this yr end, dec but then everything seems undecided.. marriage seems scary huh. but very beautiful only for once..
marriage, is like the 4 seasons.
spring
summer
autumn
winter
it has season of hopes, season full of passion, season when everything goes wrong, season when everthing turns cold. but it doesn't ends, it goes on in a cycle.. wad's worth looking for is not the number of times autumn and winter is to arrived but the spring that bought the two hearts back and the summer that had hold them thru the far walk each time winters and autumn falls on them. each of the season is not a curse but a love constructor that will build the two hearts stronger as they overcome and move on together.
helo(0.o)
yaWNzz very sleepy but woke up tho.. woke up this morning and did everything like usual and then when i m about to leave my house.. !! i dun felt like going to school at alL!! haha.. and then stood there and wonder if i should go to sch.. but then decided not to go anyway.. coz i m going to spend the half a day there doing nothing so might as well stay at home. right.. "? anyway msg'ed my supervisor already.. told him i m having a gastric pain (* i'm not lying.. it is true coz i got the feeling of having a gastric pain soon!!.. hee"hee.. )
oki.. found out that class95 ROX.. i like the songs they play during friday night, remind me of zouk.. hee hee"
yest lunch were talking about height n weight haha.. found out there is a guy whose height actually reached 1.94 !! n a gal 1.79m !! oh no.. quite amazing huh.. i would really like to see how they look like in the bus.. hee"hee..
NYP is infested with MAINLANDERS!! (* erm) oki china students.. opps.. trying to differentiate them in the crowds??
1) their speech.. have the tongue rolling with every words they say...
2) they have very fair complexion even the guys.. even the tanned wans isn't very tanned..
3) the guys dressed very slackishly..eg. 't-shirts, shorts, track shoes, seldom slippers..'
4) the girls dress trendly but..erm..eg. 'striped spagh with a bright tee inside, (commonly) a 3-qt jeans or a full length jeans, (seldom) skirts or dress, (unique & constant) track shoes..'
5) Usual hangout spot.. (mainly) SEG canteen, (seldom)FJ, (least)mac...
hee" see the common?? they always have trackshoes on.. erm.. it is not that easy to notice the guys as many guys put on trackshoes too.. but it is so wierd for the gals to be dressing nicely on top but then match down with a trackshoes.. !! anyway i had seen a far worst combination.. haha i m not going to tok about that.. are they going by the rulz?? but tied slippers is not a offense for gals wad.. so y do they put on trackshoes everytime??
oki i'll stop being mean.. so to be fair i'll say something for the safety of gals, how to notice pervertiZ in NYP hahahaha':
1) they hangout mainly around FJ and MAC..
2) they look around when they are walking instead of concentrating on where they are going..
3) they usualy walk in PAIR or groups of not more than 4.. mainly all guys..
4) when one PRETTI is spotted u will here a signal passed inside them like the zeroing officer of the artillery passing down the coordinates..
5) they will drool n stare at the pretti as she walk toward them and till her back face them..
6) they got no business in FJ & MAC but still walked thru there anyway..
7) here them chuckkleZ as the prettiez walk pass them.. dun worry if u aren't their type of tea they will chuckkleZ even louder and sometimes here the sound of vomits.. haha" they are so mean right..! ;p
8) even tho the walkway is big they still try to collide with the group of prettiez walking towards them.. (* hey u cheapo out there dun be so obvious laH!!)
9) a prettie's showy dressing means it is for the pervertiz to see..
hee"hee hope after i say this there will still be pretties in NYP.. haha this are the common charac of those pervertiz in NYP.. erm does it describes u perfectly?? erm then sad to say u are one of them, yes u stop looking around!, u the one reading my blog, i say u r one of those pervertiz.. hahahaha..
oki same here i m a very fair person so i'll list out and tell u (* yes U!!) the pervertiZ on how to notice pretti gals in NYP.. hahaha"
1) confuscious once says "know ur enemies well and u would have won half the battles".. so firstly notice where most of ur targets hangs out..
2) walk and scout around.. this is important as there are to many of them in NYP.. :p
3) notice the year1.. there are more gals in the yr1 who has a better dress sense..pretti too
4) importantly: not all dyed, rebonded, straight.. hair gals are prettiez
5) importantly: not all who dresses showy, mini skirts, spaghs, flair skirts.. are prettiez
6) DUN let their back view FOOL u.. dun get drooling over a gal just looking at her back view..
7) stay compose especially when the prettiez is just beside u..
8) dun do something stupid to catch their attention.. u r juz biao'ing them not going know them are u.. !!??
9) prettieZ prefer to be in twos if not alone..this is true for yr2 and above.. for yr one it is one big class.. hahaha..
oki that's all the tips i have.. ;p wanna know more?? hunt me and bribe me maybe i'll leak more.. hahahaa..
now listening to cyber disc 2..
today will be another tiring day even tho i m not going to sch.. hiaz.. hope my cousins will remember who i m today.. argh on tuesday he came to my house and guess wad he din call me, he din come over to hugz me, he din let me carry him.. oh no wad's worst i seems like a total stranger to him!! oh no.. *sadly i m so easily forgotten.. :( i m gonna make him remember me today and the rest of his life.. arhHAhahHAhaha (* evlish smile).. hee"hee.. all right.. i m sleepy.. n tired.. but dun feel like going to sleep.. opps i haven't log onto the e-service to reg my MC for today.. y izit so mar fan.. still muz tell supervisor then still muz logon e-services to say i was on MC today...wad else.. the prob is i m not going to get a MC.. :p hee hee...
hope today will be a brightening happy day for me..
helo(-___________-)*
"A BIG GREY"
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
troubles!!problems!!.. argh all this sux..!! kept telling myself another 10 more months to go dun do anything stupiD for now!! argh.. i had planned to work at the very start of aug din i??.. if i had followed tt plan maybe i won't even end up like this.. sux.. i hate this.. hiaz.. argh.. raymond be more pratical will yer!!!!!! i hate myself sometimes for thinking that everything will go well but now everything seems to topple over.. the free lance job?? no news..!! hiaz.. i felt like shouting to the open sea.. (* humph quite miss doing that.. )
my wAy of winding oFF:
- ) play basketball (roughly)
- ) swim
- ) cycling (speeding)
- ) head to the beach (* hadn't do that for a long time.. used to have a usual spot)
- ) clubbing (drinking...........)
- ) get myself laugh over heels and toes to forget the misery deep below..
- ) go BLANK!! brain dead!!
- ) go to orchard and have a tiring day walking here n there..!! but had nv bought any stuff..!!
- ) take a shower and stay in there as if i m asleep in the bathroom
- ) dun get to do any of those above!!?? i'll bang my head on the wall (* erm had nv reach this point)
but seems like today i had not wind off yet.. maybe coz i knew that no matter how i wind off this time it will still be the same tml??..or maybe it had been like this for the past 3yrs so no point winding off?? i m sick of trusting things that i shouldn't.. having believe in things that bought me a moment of delight.. pls!! STOP BEING NAIVE & WAKE UP!! a bloody fool i am.. "who will understand?, who knows?, who cares?" oh god are u there? .. for 3 yrs, each and every month.. this problem haunts me..i m tired, very tired.. can i leave it to u..?
listening to: leong jin ru <
helo(o.o)
hee"hee a Happy Valentine to everyone ..
oki.. it is 3:41am in the morning and i hadn't took a single sleep yet.. asking y?? coz i dun wanna sleep..!! crazy right..??!! nope had a cupid above my head now so better make gd use of tt cupid b4 he flies away.. hahaha..
anyway i got the name of the veg wrong in the prev post hee"hee it was afarfa (* i think i got the spelling wrong also but nvm who cares... it juz taste awfull!!)
alrighti the lab supervisor hadn't come and see me today even.. anyway.. i doubt he cares since my proj isn't those big big shot type wan.. hiaz.
oki something happi!! moi's aunt getting married at the end of the yr.. hooIEEeey and guess wad i'm the ban lang.. haha.. dunno wad's it called in eng.. ;p anyway is the extra nerd nerd fella standing there beside the groom.. hee hee.. at least if i were to remain bachelor i can still say i walked down the aisle before huh.. :p hahaha...
had another bad dinner today.. maybe coz of the big $$ trouble.. hiaz.. and very very tired also lar..
WOw 4:30am already.. 2 more hours to go and my deariE & i would had chat for a whole 24hrs.. hahahaha.. unbelievable.. and guess wad.. my phone bills gonna BURST!!!!! tired tired.. hee"hee..
tuning to: fish Leong album disc 2
helo(o.O) reporting from S4__ hee"hee sad to say i dunno which lab room am i actually in and HEY that supervisor had went on HOLIDAY argh!!.. hahaha" anyway.. forgot to post up something yest.. on my way home from school yest i was thinking about something to distract myself from thinking of project stuff of coz.. hee"hee whenever there is anyone who said my blog is nice i would sub-consiously reply "THANZ" but then erm the one thing is that i m not the wan to design this whole template..!! haHA.. so i think it is better tt i say THANZ THANZ to <aoi> this was her design..if ur curiosity happens to bring u here again i would like to say that this is a simple and very nice template (* if it wasn't nice then i wouldn't had use it.. hahahaHA).. alright i m getting really tired, hungry and TIRED AND HUNGRY!! yest's dinner was really a torture to mOI!! is was sandwhiches!! sandwhiched for dinner, u asked?? YES IT IS "SANDWHICHES!!" the 2 bread with eggs, hams, tunas, and vegetables and more VEG!!! oh no.. argh it is making me greeny sick 
!! i had nv like eating veg!! argh.. mum had ontop of it some farfalleZ (* is tt the correct spelling??? erm dunno anyway is those little, very tiny weeny thinNy tau gey's(beansprouts) but they taste worst than tau gei's to me) and alot of lettuce i dun mind lettuce.. but the worst but luckily.. my mum din put on the thousand island dressing!! phew.. i can't stand the taste.. argh.. i nv know y.. there was once when my bro mixed thousands islands dressings with Mayo into the whole pot of spaghetti O.O!!! argh i skept that whole dinner totally!! it would had killed me instantly.. i juz dunno y but whenever i taste veg tt taste funni or thousand island dressing or even mayo i juz feel like puUUuking, yes 'to puke', yes yes 'to vomit' ~___________~* argh it is not that i never tried them but it always happen n whenever i had those puUUuking "senSatIonZ" 
my eyes would go red.. and then will come this roaring qn "y are crying over ur DInNeR??" :`-( i hope my deariE like chinese cuisines more than angMo cuisines.. sob sob.. but anyway stuffed up some bread for dinner instead of the whole sandwhich.. sry mumMee!!.....
... slept at two plus yest hee"hee was chatting with deariE hahaHAHA 
a ultimate cutiE little deariE she is HAha.. taTata a once in a lifetime reveal:deariE: just had my dinner was so full... i m going to EXPLODE (BAO ZHA)!! humph.. i almost laugh out so loudly!! haha she is so cutiE!! 
slapped* slapped*.. wake UP!! alrighti i m kinda bonka bonZa with my FYP le.. 2nd day into coding the programm and guess wad juz like the first day morning i m stucked..!! argh.. almost had the whole interface out already .. now i need to really study into how to do the connection to the server part and updating & retreiving fields variables.. now i'm taking a step even further and that is to read up wad can MIDP 2.0 do!!.. (* hahaHA i had the documentation page on but then i m here typing this post hee hee.. !! that's my kinda study hee"hee..) AND the first group had went for lunch.. now waiting for 1215 to reach ding dong ding dong..hee hee.. oki oki.. better get into the right stuff now.. byIEz (* hee"hee now i find the best point of using e-mail to update my blog's post..!! i can put smiley's on it!! yipee.. 
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helo(o.O)
oki.. just watched the Singapore Idol.. a BIG oh NO!! even the best of the worst are getting on the judges nerves..!! but then also the comments from the judges are so mean..!! argh.. but contrary Gurmit is so nice.. envy him!!?? he got all the tau hu to eat lol he old, young, male, female all bao ga liao..but it is so good of him to lent them a shoulder i think tt's wad they need at tt very sec also insteads of words.. hahahaHA oki.. still thinks Singapore Idol is a GooogoooGagaa lol show..
had my run around the park today.. got a excellent improvement from one round to 1 and 3/4 rounds.. hee hee great improvement huh.. within a day leh.. ;p a little proud huh.. but i think the timing is a little sux ba.. tho my speed wasn't tt slow.. erm gotto do a trial run b4 the test hee hee coz i dun even know how far i had ran today.. i ran till my heart hurts my legs can't carry me any further my blood is racing faster than i m.. tt's the point that made me decided to stop..
alright about some FYP stuff.. hee hee.. i found out tt i m rather talented with programming.. quite managed to fig out how the whole J2ME works le.. and started immediately on working the programm today.. managed to get the first part out by the end of today which is the GUI part hee"hee tho faced a prob in the morning even my fren who is studying J2ME can't fig it out.. but i manahed to get everything right on track after lunch.. phew..
oki helping out my fren with her C++ programm.. hiaz.. very tired.. gonna sleep quickly..
helo(o.o)
hee"hee had been rather busy with my final project recently had to do a SMS sort of programm using java and it has to support MIDP2.0 and broadcasting..n.. blahZ blahZ blAhZ.. hhiaz.. can't help my stress n busYness much as i'm doing something which i had never learn before .. how could one ever take it easy when he only has 12 weeks to do something more than juz to compliant with wad was given in the project proposal and it is something that he has to learn from scratch.. !! erm at least it wasn't that hard for me still coz it is still going aound java and programming.. anyway J2ME seems to be quite a powerful tool to build mobile application !!BUT!! i'm still very reluctant to study anything that has to do with wap.. not even java i suppose tho i know that J2ME won't stay still it will be a on growing tool for mobile application.. hiaz.. managed to get a BIG book from the library today hee"hee it has all that i need to know about J2ME right from the basic and it is really from the beginning the first topic is the very popular "Hello World".. haha.. it is a thick and gd book.. and it had never come across in my life b4 that i would stay put and read such a thick book properly(* the last time i ever sat still and study a book was the days b4 my geography exams.. that was the thickest book i had ever finished studying so far.. erm dun tok about novels!! eng novels had nv cross my mind i think i'll had gave up after the first 3 chpts.. y can't eng novels be like chinese novels?? tho short but sweet and pretty!!).. hee hee.. !! anyway reached home and intend to carry on with the study and start right on with the programming.. humph.. but comes to know that i'm stuck up with some quizzes on the net.. hee hee!!
here goes the results tata!!
You're a Winter. You very much enjoy your time
alone but do like other people's company
sometimes. You just need your space. You have a
few priviledged friends who saw past your
colder exterior to find the true you. You can
have pretty bad mood swings (though you hate to
admit it) so you could be soft one second then
storming around the next! But over all, you're
a very pleasant person once people take the
time to get to know you. You're a good friend
for in-depth talks. You're very talanted when
it comes to creative things.
What season are you? (pics)
brought to you by Quizilla
You're a "Green Angel". You're one person
who is extremely protective of people around
you (especially your friends) and you'd end up
as a gaudian angel. You're stronger than most
and aren't ashamed to show it. People know how
tough you are and don't dare to mess with you
when you get mad. You're real close with your
friends and couldn't live wihout them so even
in heaven, you want to help them. You know
they'd want you as a gaudian angel and you'd
love to be able to ensure safety of your
friends for yourself because you're on of those
"If you want something done right, do it
yourself" kind of person.
What Color Angel Are You? (PICS)
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hee"hee kinda amused when i see that all the ans has abit of who i really am.. haha.. so as to say it isn't really accurate.. and i dun really trust such quizzes to tell who i really am.. haha.. but took it out of curiosity's FUN.. hee"hee..
i noticed something funni today which made me conclude that i dun really trust machines in handling $$.. hahaha" as usual going to sch early in the morning when i had to walk over to the ticket machine to top up my ez-link card.. (* oki the following steps always happen) i would place the card in and proceed with the steps and slot the $$ in.. then press ok and take my card, after i got my ez-link card i will still be either standing there as if i m waiting for something to come out if not that then i'll will walk away slowly but kept looking back at the machine as if i had forgotten to take something.. haha.. wad was i thinking?? i dunno either but that always happen hahaha.. i m like waiting for the machine to spit out my money HAHAHA.. anyone has the same habit!!?? pls let me know!! hee"hee..
alright sunday is coming to remind everyone out there reading my bloggy.. it is the chinese's valentine's day this sunday.. so if anyone had missed the wan on 14th feb.. grab hold of this chance hee"hee.. may all cupids be marksman this sunday haha.." shooting ME!!??.. ;p
alright gonna grab my dinner now then get back to the proj.. other than the proj to worry i m still having alot of problems that need to settle immediately.. hiaz.. but hopefully.. i can manage thru this.. i could see the rainbow in front but the road i traveled today is rough.. .. ganbatte ne raymond..
oki ITADAKIMASU!! da jia chi fan!! everybody eat!!
__________________________________________________helo(-_-) sianz. .. now in school waiting for my supervisor for the FYP.. argh it is like the first day of the attachment where we have to wait at the stupid lobby like nerds.. n now i m sitting in front of my com like a NERD!! darn.. i m not feeling well this very minute le.. having a little headache and the nauseous feeling.. argh .. n i m getting damn sleepy..!! better send this post le.. not good if the other lecturer sees i m not into work (* erm i dun have any work either.. ) hiaz.. wad a boring 1st day.. "friends: treasure them. love them, embrace them, never leave them of your sight. friends are gifts from heaven, given to us without any terms & conditions" Raymond ng jun yit 
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helo HELO(o.o)*
happy happy happy today.. the last day of attachment.. tho i din really managed to control myself from loooking back at the office as i walk away.. alot of memories are there.. a beautiful rainbow was brushed thru our hearts, a plain arc but with so much colors on it.. tho there are good and bad times i think our batch had really imposed alot of complains and troubles for them but none the less they still teaches us patiently.. so good of them.. days had to go on.. tho i miss everyone there but working there is certainly out of the question.. hee"hee i came to fig out that i can't stand the office working attitude so.. let's just miss each other.. kk.. till we meet again ba.. and all those who had did this attachment with me.. i will miss u peeps too.. the funky times we had, the pain and stressful times that we had gone thru.. everything so worth remembering.. hope to see yer all soon in sch.. haHA guess wad the blueLion's IBM idol event still rings hard in my brain..
shz* my sis took the chair away now i had squat on the floor and type this post.. so cruel of her..
anyway going back to sch on monday for final year project.. another boring days to count tho at the end of it i doubt i'll miss it.. alright.. gotto plan of wad to wear each day already hiaz.. so sianz..
anyway ming tian hui gen hao huh.. ;p
helo(o.o)
last day of work.. phew alot of contradicting feeling as to those of the first days.. haha.. first day of attachment u will be feeling "oh shux 3 months of attachment, it is gonna be long" and worst still u will say "WAD!! i got to do this kinda job!!??" and also "shux we are paid that pathetic amount and we are to do as much as they are!!".. this are all the things that had ran thru each of our mind or even spoked to directly to our mentol.. haha.. but then on this very last day u will say "oh shux, i m gonna miss this place!" and "will i wake up tml and find myself taking the same route back to this work place?" and "this attachment seems to pass so fast!! hope it is a little longer".. haha..the contradiction..
anyway just came back from lunch they had actually prepared a farewell lunch for all the interns so sweet of them.. we aren't that unsincere either this morning we bought a cake for them n called them into a room where we suprised them with the cakes hee"hee and guess wad it was jassemine's (*one of the mentol) birthday this month so she had the honour to blow the candle on the cake and the first cut.. whAO.. these few days had simply been the most exciting and wonderful stay yest was the IBM idol.. the few of us had did a wonderful job in putting up a HAHA show.. hee we did stomp with a clownish tune and a marching beat.. so cooly FunnisH.. the audience laugh till non-stop also still got 'encore" sia.. but too bad they dun have the time for encore also.. :p had such a hunmourous time then.. cool.. tml will be the food fest le.. now trying to deco the stall.. and put up banners and stuff hee"hee tml the last day will have alot of FUN.. ;p
keke better get to work on it fast..
helo(o.o)
alrite tml is the RaRaRRR thingy already.. humph. the few guys are gonna make a fool of ourselves hahAHAHA.. anyway was quite fun to be on there we are all telling ourself that we will throw in and lose all our face tml and that's it two more days and we are going out of this place.. hee hee..
was ultimate busy today those OLs reached at 6 to rush a tender that has to be out by 1030.. then at 945 i was walking stylo miloly to my desk hahah.. but then who knows that was the only cool time of the whole day .. till afternoon everyone of us were rushing the two tenders that has to be sent out phew was so rushy.. hee hee but was such a gd way to waste the whole day .. din do the routine stuff like getting into msn nor check my lotus notes.. just stayed in the treasure island and guess wad!! that whole place is like the production section of the factory papers flies about, hole punchers passed about, files are all over the place, torned papers were just thrown onto the floor.. haha.. cool i like this kind of busy but FUN environment.. :p then treasure island turned into a pirated factory which is always.. i had numerous CDs dup in there already hee"ehee.. today got fish leong's album .. hee hee... kk .. anyway.. was quite cool then was the rehersal.. hahaha.. ~i lose my stix~ we are putting up a stomp and it is kinda noisy (* it was suppose to be) and ultimate funni.. and guess wad we are going to dress real formal rugged tml hee"ee.. looking forward to tml!!?? :p alright now who cares about face i m gonna throw it into the bin i'm holding tml and have the most lovely time of the attachment for the past 3 months.. :p i m gonna remember tml tho it will be utterly embarassing..
alright staying happY!!
helo(o_o)
had a tiring weekend.. juz reach home... was at the 'love singapore' prayer mtg in church this morning and then stayed at my uncle house to watch 'van helsing' and then watched Singapore Idol juz now (* eyes POP out.. as my bro said it is a show to be laughed) i had quite anticipated that it would be quite funny, unseenable and then came to realize that Singapore Idols has so much more talents to those of William Hung.. oh no!! especially the lEmoN tReE HAHAHAHA and the StriPer and the gal who juz went in and cried thru out.. hahahahaHAHA.. pls dun play this show internationally.. it will widespread a serious-rofl epidemic.. ahaha.. anyway.. didn't join in the cell outing.. tho .. hiaz.. anyway din manage to meet up with her. she had tution on a public holiday.. (* where on earth are there such good tutors who are willing to work in a public holiday's afternoon) hiaz.. anyway.. relationship, i felt it is the most contradicting, most hypocrytical, most tiring thing in the world i long to get into one but i when i am almost there i retreated.. ok i think i'll stop talking about this let the lord's will be done.. anyway
went to new-born chinese church first service on saturday after bible lesson on thessalonian in church, with his grace about 30 ppl attended the service.. i was there to check out their sound system and to pick up some new skills.. anyway the sound man there are all new to the system but managed to pick up some skills like setting up systems and tearing them down.. this is the first time i witness how new-born churches start up.. they rented the hall at orchid country club.. then at 5+pm they will start setting the hall up with the instruments then after everything ends they will pack it all up again tedious huh.. but this ppl did it with so much joy, later the days when they grew in great numbers like city harvest or even just like renewal they will give thanks to the lord for this walk of hard work..
then it is to the 'stream of praise' at Bethesda Cathedral on sunday evening (* they had a very good sound system =p ..) .. had such a great time with my lord then.. i think that none other than worship are better than leading ppl close to lord.. had been quite some time since i last worship with such a joyful, full of praising heart.. thanz lord.. yest was their last stop 'stream of praise' had journeyed to taiwan, hong kong for 40 days leaving behind their work and everything.. i think their walk of faith is really a big lesson to be taught.. it had been a wonderful nite with them, with the lord..
"lonliness, it is a void in our heart that was created right on the day we were born, nothing can fill this void for only one. on the very day we found this void we tried to fill it with whatever we can find in this world. we work to earned alot of money hoping that it will fill this emptiness in our heart, but it didn't. we make alot of friends to have them to spend our lonliness time with but when they are gone the emptiness remains. we get the best cars, best stuffs and more but they dun fit into the emptiness it is still there. we get into relationships to have someone to fill the whole of this emptiness but they just don't fill it all. now we qestion why.. why are we born into this family, why isn't there anyone who understand this lonliness which i am feeling why?why?WHY? and so we continue the search and blame but to know that the answer is not to be found here where you live, it is to be found in the one who created you. this emptiness in your heart is created in a very unique way that only the creator could fit himself in, it is a void that god created in us so that he can come in if we open this door to our heart to him. though we may be different in person, in character but none the less we are made the same way, man from soil and the breath of life, women from the ribs of man, and so more for this heart, this void is there in everyone and only he can fill it."
now i finally know of this emptiness.. how occupied it is depends on how open we are to our abba father.
oki this had been a very spiritual filling week.. 11:28.. better get some sleep now still gotto work tml.. erm hee"hee i got a 4hrs off for the overtime work last friday hee"hee.. another 2 and a 1/2 years more and i am out to the social university. question had been starting to spun round my head again and again of coz indecisive, creative and imaginative ppl like me could never stop with one idea and with so many ideas i couldn't choose one either.. but hopefully i would be able to really get myself stable in one road that i like and love with much joy, *erm somehow or anyhow.. :D
ok goodnitez.. better get going to dreamland fast, told her that we will meet there.. haHA found out recently that i m so full of such kind of sweety stuff.. or rather sweet rubbish..
helo(-.-)
woke up this morning staring at the photos by my bed... noticed that all the photos doesn't have u inside anymore.. everyone in the photo still hangs a bright smile, looking back at it.. i whispered, wad a long way we had walked.. kinda forgotten ur look, wondering how u r doing.. and deeply missing u.. just to say "sorry" i wasn't fillial enough not mature in thinking.. even tho being the eldest in the family i had been very self-centered.. till the day u left.. it taught me maturity in life, importance of family bonds, faithfulness to ur partner and of all, feelings of child in a broken family.. i know very well in my heart from tt very day, days ahead would be different and i had seek success from then on, the happiness of the family and the love from u will no longer be there.. wad is left is nothing but the echoes of memories bought to the ears with past tenses only.. say i'm feeling sad..? am i? i dunno..! i no longer wanna dwell in this.. i duno y the sudden burst of this feeling.. it seldom come by tho.. everyone in the family is striving hard and doing well.. bro got bronze in the world skill competition for automotives, sis had improved alot in her studies even tho in em3 but all of us are looking forward to her getting into normal academic stream after her PSLE.. mum is doing well she had been more strong than before in her health and work.. i m doing fine going to grad with a dip.. wad about u? i still remember those last words tt u told me "take good care of mum, bro and sis" i won't forget them dad.. everyone still misses u tho we hang a bright smile across, deep in each of our heart u r still there... would we happen to cross each others path one day in singapore? wad would we say to each other? will "dad" this word comes out of my mouth? ........or........... will u juz walked pass me as if u dunno me? even if tt were to happen i know u cares and i m grateful to u for who i m now.............................................. dad i miss u..............
helo(-____-)
presently at my workstation juz finish my lunch and discussion.. the company here is holding a IBM idol at laguna nxt wed so they had approach one of the interns and asked if we could put a item at the very beginning of the whole show.. oki on wed we started our discussion i wasn't very on with the idea at first but seeing that all of them are so in into the idea i agreed on it and was fine with everything.. after the discussion in the evening one of them approach me and said alot of negative stuff i was like so fed up if u wanna do it then stop saying tt the show won't go as planned and breaking the news in a very negative manner causing two other intern not to help us.. shit i m so fed up with her.. and today she say she is fine with the idea in the morning then towards the afternoon she got another fella to fall out and she herself decided not to do it.. wad a bitch u really are ... if u don't wanna do it, say that at the very first place and stop pulling everyone with yer.. and stop saying wad helping out the backstage .. wad backstage do u think we have got there... !!?? and also stop pushing everything to the guys do u think all the guys willingly wanna do it.. the most fed up thing is that she actually told me to look at the gal who wanted to fall out and told her to spit it out on my face that she doesn't wanna do it.. wad the *............ do u wanna prove huh!!?? shit bloody u.. if u think u r really that good at pulling those ppl down y not try helping us and do a better for urself .. this is the kind of ppl i hate and despise most.. i m damn sick of her attitude.. anyway was really grateful to another guy who had took the initiative to hold up the whole mtg juz now.. thz bro azmi ..... charmaine and i was really too frustrated to do or speak anything.. we would blow up and i would had slap tt gurl juz now if we were to carry on planning the mtg and stuff.. bro u r cool and calm and took the whole thing firmly.. had everything planned and going accordingly to wad was firstly planned thanz bro.. really very appreciated..
oki enuff of the complains i suppose half of the anger are released.. anyway getting very impatient recently the boss had not returned any of the mail regarding any proj.. hiaz.. august had starts.. and problems will start to pour down on me soon, that day i thought of completing the storyboard for Job's proj but my brain juz went dead of ideas.. very bad huh hope that i could finish it soon and stop draggin the time.. !!
alright heard that the attachment student evaluation is going on now.. erm a little scary of wad comments i would hear.. but then.. still hopes for the best huh.. my mentol!! hope she still have some good impression of me.. :p hee hee" i think tt's y sometimes we have to be fake a little tho we dun really like tt person haha.. coz we would nv know when we will need these ppl help in our stuffs.. maybe not to be fake with ppl we dun like but try to be nice to everyone.. erm.. hard tho.. i can't be nice to everyone if tt person really get on my nerves like tt gurl.. grr...
oki tooday is thursday..!! tml is friday THEN.. one more week to go.. BUT i'll be stuck in a worst place.. that's SCHOOL!!!!!!!! argh.. we dun get paid for going to sch everyday but we still have to.. wad a tedious thing.. hiaz.. but anyway hopes for a gd supervisor. :p
monday is coming.. ... ....
"a paint tt i gave your heart, shared between the two of us, not to be forever but to be remembered"
helo(o.o) i had a very bad headache yesterday, din have a fever but the headache is really killing me, should be due to the rain in the morning.. then caught a cold when i reached the office, the air-con's temperature was darn low.. then after work the headache was already peaking, went to pack my dinner home well who knows my mum bought my dinner already... then had two stuff for dinner.. but the headache din go away.. reach the peak at around 8+.. was already rolling on my bed trying to get myself to sleep hopefully it will go away.. but it din.. went to take a panadol, the pain subsides a bit and i fell asleep awhile then the pain returned when i was woked up by a msg from a colleague whom i thought was a msg from my deariE, if knew it wasn't from her then wouldn't had woke up huh (!!) anyway din get back to sleep after looking at the msg.. hee hee was quite naughty yest actually hee"hee actually missed my deariE alot but din intend to msg her but waited for her to msg me :p hee"hee anyway she msg'ed at 11+ then i complained to her about the big headache.. and there she pushed me to sleep :D this morning was fine.. still had a little unwell in the head but not as bad as yest.. hiaz.. anyway ulcers in my mouth are getting on my nerves again.. PAIN!!!!!!! may someone juz invent a injection that will get rid of ulcers once n for all.. HELP...
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ii'mm ssttill vverryy bbluurr nnoww hahaha.. is a monday, which means 11 more days to go... yyeeaahh..
oki was a rainy monday morning..heard my phone rang with a beautiful melody woke up to switch the alarm off then ZZzzz.. then another time it rang .. 'an incoming msg' got up to take a peek was from my sec sch sis.. then back to ZZzz... oki third time it rang the melodyis quite loud.. i got up immediately to switch the alarm off again.. then back to ZZzz.. fourth time the phone rang.. i was fed up but still got up to see the sms.. was from a colleague.. and guess wad was tt time??!! 8:30am... oh no!!.... but stilL went back lying on bed.. 8:45am.. finally pulled my lazy ass of the bed.. argh.. still a little sshhaakkyy.. then do my usual morning wash up, clean up, then off to work at 9:15am.. reach workplace at 9:45am hee hee.. was such a good day to sleep but too bad.. had to come to work hiaz..
hee hee yest nite was sending one of my web design proj to the boss but then guess wad happen i sent the e-mail without the attachment and i onli notice tt when i woke up half asleep.. hee hee.. and the lazy me wouldn't go and open the com to send it in the middle of the nite.. :p hiaz.. very bad very bad...
anyway i'm looking forwad to monday 9th of August.. a surprise!?
humph.. if onli... maybe....
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