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Thursday, December 23, 2004

helo(o.o)

morning.! sch was fun on the first day full of laughters.. oh no guess wad!! for yest proj i got no choice but to pair with CXY!! arh!! hiaz.. y? tt guy better do something n do it right this time round if not i m gonna turn him round n give him a tight spank with cucumberS! hope he will if not he gotto do concurrent also.. n there is so many modules waiting for him to retake liao.. so he better make it for the proj.. haha! erm anyway the rest of the day are full of funni stuff.. LTF ur magic still fail huh! hahaha.. but his lame'mezz nv goes.! felt so fun to be back in sch.. but all this gonna end in just a few months time le.. sianz. we will loose each other's contact, we will forget how each other looks like, we will be so busy that even tho we miss everyone but there isn't time for all of us to meet out, we will talk about everything with past tense. tt's sad isn't it? humph treasure this very min ba..

i really felt like concentrating on my studies for just this last semester, after this i may not even be studying anymore le.. i wanna be just studying n doing nothing else.. humph. impossible? dunno. my mum understand it.. it is a real blessing i got this mum instead of other mum huh? yep yep god knows wad is best for me.. anyway. yar erm 'no anyway' hahaa.. k

arh! my whole family sick the second time.. last week was my sis n my mum then on sunday nite was me.. then yest was my bro again! oki everyone had a fair share of fever for the month of dec le.. hahaha.. wad a family "tragedy" hahaha.. but tt bull bro left this morning for WORK!! arh.. mum n i was telling him to stay at home for the next two days but there he is off like a bull to work! humph.. tt sounds very much like dad.. dad is a workaholic, he goes to work even when he is sick* but he thinks he is fine to handle it* so my mum will sent him off.. then keep telling us "when u all grow up muz be fillial see how hard dad earns for this family!" n mum will be worrying here n there if dad is alright.. tho i din ask but whenever dad comes home i see tt he is alright leh.. hahaha. hey hey! i also got workaholic genes from my dad ok! i not lazyBonez ah!!

this is a boring morning.. oki.. gonna hunt some food for myself le.. 'zai jian'

Here I Am @ 12/23/2004 08:47:00 AM

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

hihi(^.^)

have a new look on my bloggie le.. give some comment will yer?

Here I Am @ 12/21/2004 01:50:00 PM

helo(o.O)

argh..! wasn't in sch on the first and second day of sch start.. Y? sick lar.. so sickish..!! was even having bad dreams on the first nite.. erm how come?? erm dunno leh.! this yr's dec was so full of illness n sickness.. erm.. so bad.. but was feeling better today le.. but thought tt it would be better for me to rest at home still so din go to sch..

oki.. sem start so are all my prob.. hiaz.. mum made some mistakes.. n come my prob hiaz.. hiaz wasn't even x'mas yet leh.! humph i gotta be smiling on x'mas.. right?

oki.. too tired to be doing much blogging .. there goes ..

Here I Am @ 12/21/2004 01:13:00 PM

Saturday, December 18, 2004

hihi(0.o)

humph hadn't been very happy these few days.. sianz.. but anyway was thinking thru loadz of stuff yest n well manage to make a decision.. well anyway i m happy now.. i think tt's more than anything isn't it? working at a place where u can't even really put on a sincere smile do u want? working at a place where i felt so condemned by my frenz can i smile? hiaz..on one hands are all this human relationship but on the other are great fortunes.. $$ yar.. being a great earner at the age of 20 who dun want? having a 'rich labeled' in this society who isn't thinking of it? having a BMW at my age who dun want? hiaz.. but i m really not happy at all..! hiaz.. but anyway i decided to put off that job le.. n i m happy now.. i give thanks to u oh' lord for giving me the wisdom to make the decision.. thanks 'lao ba'.. love yer. thinking tt i won't make a great sucessful person? yar i agree but being sucessful dun need to be with great fortunes arh! if in my time of life i had been a greatest fren to all of my frenz then ain't i a sucessful person too? yep isn't it..

oki thinking too much huh!.. sms inbox full again!! y? yup too much of her msg inside.. deleted all the conversation msg away le.. was i stronger now to face it? yup but of coz emotions are of human nature.. nan mian hui shang xing de mar! humph.. oki anyway.. tt's it ba somethings on earth where we just dun meant to have it then it just isn't no matter how much we put in no matter how peservere or persistence we wanna be it just isn't for us.. fortunes, love everything alike.. got a great lesson learnt this time..

oki oki.. gonna put on a BIG BIG :) now le.. coz i going shoppping loh!! hee'hee.. gonna go down to queensway with bro yep yep.. eh tell u hor i first time there leh!! wth right!!.. yup yup but now my bro pushing me to go dress up liao.. hee'he'e.. k maybe continue tonite huh.. ;p buaiz..

Here I Am @ 12/18/2004 10:49:00 AM

Friday, December 17, 2004

helo(o.O)

hee'hee.. very very proud to announce that my appetite is back le guess wad i had dinner yest nite? 1 packet duck rice, 3 slices of bread & 1 plate of mee siam.. hahaha.. so shiok.. this morning had a cheeZ prata n 3 kosong prata.. & now still hunting for bitez bitez.. slurpZ slurpZ.. hee'hee.. BUT! dun seem like i m putting any weight at all!! oh no! i may get bashed up by most gals! but tt's the prob with me .! guess wad mum say!!?? sis grew FAT liao!! oh doinks! she has got the genes of her two bros! one grow tall but not fat, the other grow fat but not tall *erm.. tho he always wanna say he 1.7 liao! but in actual fact he still short lar.. ;p hahahaha!* n now moi sis growing tall n fat..i nick'ed her as KING KONG liao! muaHAhaha erm better not let her know i wrote it all out here if not sure kena bashed up by her!! doinkz doinkz!! gWahAHaha..

during breakfast just now was saying about my mum's korea trip next yr..! humph she was asking if she would be able to make it in time to send me off for my NS.. erm.. i nv thought of this at all leh..!! but nvm if she comes or not.. hee'hee.. yar lor.. it feels kinda strange to see ur mum cry when u going for NS right hahaha.. tho i really doubt my mum will cry.. DUH!!.. but who knows huh!! haha maybe she onli say say huh.. later she cry like the great waterfall like tt hee'hee.. ;p ... then was talking about my 21st b'day liao.. wah ultimate suayz leh! on a tue! hiaz.. can't celebrate on the weekend b4 tt tue coz would be too early then the weekend after tt? !!"wah over by 4 days liao leh.. NO MOOD liao lar.."!! but hiaz.. where got bian.. take MC arh? tt day sure have a big present wan *doing pumping*, a BIG birthday cake *grenade field*, and lots of candles *21 rounds of live fire*.. fun? argh..! of coz.. it will be "ironically!" hiaz sianz wad a BIG 21 i m going to have.. hee'hee..

NS!? seems like nearing huh? but indeed it is.. a day when all boi boi turn to become "shu shu!" haha.. in other words grow mature lar! haha.. but wad's is nearing is my medical checkup huh.. wondering which PES i will be getting.. lol see my fren wrote how their medical chekup went.. i was like "HAHAHA".. tt day wanna go retrieve my medical questionaire.. OH shux! tt page went missing!! took me two days to finally find it sia.. then save it!! hooooooooooo...

oki heard tt JC posting results out le.. hope u peeps able to get into the sch u wanna.. n hey peeps going for the youth camp hope u ppl have a wonderful time there! hiaz n sch starting nxt week let us all gambatte ba.. for our last sch sem.. we gonna miss each of the frenz we know here in poly aren't we?

~frenz for once n for all~
from within the midst of strangers we knew each other
was it fate or destine
do we believe that we were once made to be frenz?
frenz are the one tt was made to be by our side
when dark clouds blinds us
when rainbow seems too much for just my own smile
when sunshine needs to be shared
i believe u, my fren would be there..
a gift u r in my life,
which i'll treasure,
ur tears i'll bring it it with me,
ur smile i'll smile with,
ur sorrows i would hear,
a shoulder, a ear, a hand
i will lend to those i call 'my frenz'

oki tt's all peeps gonna start planning my BIG man plan (da nan ren ji hua) liao waHAHaha..

Here I Am @ 12/17/2004 11:45:00 AM

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

helo(O.o)

ohaYo gOzAimAsU.. hoho. had a very tightz n sweet sleep hee'hee.. erm this week ultimate busy but humph isn't tt tired tho coz i gotta sleep the whole day then go out just awhile.. hee'hee.. anyway this week schedule pack le..! erm any frenz wanna meet out with me? gonna do booking leh!! eh sch gonna start soon le.. humph.. so any class outing?? make it this week ba.. if not sch reopens le.. opps got ppl doing FYP huh.. hahaha too bad for u ppl huh no hols.. ;p hee'hee..

oki enuff suan'ing le.. had a gd talk with mum yest about this family. also about my bro n my sis.. mum had a big big 'fan lian' with grandMa they even 'bu cheng ren' their 'mu nu' relationship.. humph.. big prob huh.. yar. but then hiaz.. as the eldest granson n the eldest son of coz i can't be bias nor stand on one ground.. nor do i take any stand with anyone but wadeva decision moi mum take i would respect it.. hiaz.. but the wan really caught in the middle is my aunt, jelane just got married n gotta face so much of family prob le.. also her husband, adrian.. hiaz.. we are all one family le.. had been really hard on him.. hiaz.. aunt is gd with both parties n i really thank god she is one gd listener.. she is not bias with anyone n she thinks logically.. i believe everything will be fine with guidance of the lord also with the ppl tt he put in this family.. my bro, my sis.. i talk with my bro n he seems fine not standing with any side, humph tt's gd.. i really dun hope for anymore conflicts from anyone else either.. any 'en yuan' from them will end with them n shall not carry on anymore.. hiaz.. really hope for greater blessings to befall on this family.. it is blessed already tt everyone in this family had received christ le.. but none the less humans are after all humans we have emotionals we need human touch to affirm care.. tt's human isn't it.. hiaz.. but mum wanna me to voice out my thoughts so i did. everything went out well she is willing to listen to wad i have thought.. and further discussion carried on our own family regarding sis who is growing.. hiaz greater tempt in the roads in front greater truths of life lies ahead.. my bro.. hiaz he is one big headache for my mum tho not for me but hearing wad my mum say i think it is possible for anything to happen huh.. he is one lovely dude who always hangs around mum.. erm mummy's boi. yar tt's it.. hahahaa.. hiaz this family gonna face greater challenge.. aunt told me something about grandpa which mum n uncle dun know which means onli my aunt n i knows onli.. hiaz such great pressure.. grandpa has a cancerous lump on his throat.. humph he went back to m'sia for check up liao.. hiaz. gonna prepare ourselves for any greater challenge in the family le..

oki oki.. gonna :) abit le.. wad's above prayers are faith so better not worry too much about those prob if not will have more white hairz liao.. nothing :) 'ing happening in life lately leh.. oki gonna be a coolie later le.. :( aunt wanna me to help her move stuffz.. hiaz.. but she giving me a big angBao.. hee'hee.. :p erm a turkey feast n log cakes under a big BIG white x'mas tree would be great..!! hahahahaa!!

timetable is out? arh.. sianZ sch gonna start le.. simon sae! "everyone starting sch on the 20th say 'SIANZ !!' "

erm went for a lill shopping but found nothing for myself.. dun even know wad i wanna get for myself *erm.. assuming tt santa will give me all i want in my wishlist le... muahahahaha* who shall be my santa? hee'hee.. x'mas is near.. oh hohoho..

oh santa will the snows fall tonight? i will be dancing, i will be waiting, for this joyous season!

Here I Am @ 12/15/2004 10:00:00 AM

Monday, December 13, 2004

hiYer(o.O)

ohaYo GoZimaSu.. argh... "TIRED TIRED" woke up this morning n wOohoO.. there's no one at home.. did some household chores n back to face this com.. humph there is this lill buzzing insect in my room hope to give a real tight warm sQueeZe.. erm but.. for dunno how many times liao i always miss.. hee'hee.. oki wanna know about how the BEST-man survived the saturday?

alright the hecticNeZZ started on friday nite once i reach my uncle's place it is like war zone liao haha.. a lill kua zHang le huh.. but it really is some kinda like tt lar.. we need to put up deco.. prepare the food our shirtz n raraa stuffz like camera.. n blablabla.. oki tt's wasn't tt bad tho at least we knew systemetically wad we need to do.. but we still slept late around 2++am then was called up by my aunt early in the morning 5am!?.. "yawnZ yawnZ yawnZ yawnZ yawnZ" was all tt come out of my mouth HAHhaha.. then everything starts to warm up when the first person arrives.. the hairStylist for the bride n the bridesMaid.. then everything BinG bINg PianG pIANg liao.. hee'hee.. there was a queue in front of the toilet.. "hey i was one of those early early wake up wan but i almost the last to use the toilet..!!" so as to proof the queueing system doesn't really works on this very day.. haha.. kk next get dress n began doing my hair.. argh there wasn't another handheld mirror to see the back of my head.. but anyway i also quite sui bian with my styling for tt morning.. eh forgive me lar i really "yawnZ yawnZ .. lazy leh" hahaha.. so used gel onli n well did the normal style which i go out with.. oki n the rest bla bla bla stuffz huh like eating lar n leSiao'ing n SuaNing my aunt hahaha.. taking candid shot of everyone there.. making hoHOhaHA there hee'hee.. yup then the exiting moment arrives the groom is here.. the ladies to block the great gates of union.. haha.. waH! poor guyz they got it real bad from those jie mei pai..! wonder how was like in the ancient times huh.? er Mei pai VS wu Dang pai .. win the match to enter the door? hahahaha... erm i shall not spill any tricks pulled by those ladies guarding the door for my very own sake .. erm hahaha... but there was one very paiSeh wan standing in front of the room door n singing a cute cute children song which my aunt like to hear from adrian(*the groom) .. hahaha.. oh tt's SO paiSeh.. hiaz.. but being a groom gotto be thick skinned le lar.. boH bian.. hee'hee.. kk then head over to the groom's place then got yumCha session then a TCS (tok cok session) coz they have a custom to follow which is tt the bride n groom cannot leave the guy's house b4 12pm.. so the rest of us are rooting there also liao lor.. but i sure get loads of angBao HAHAHA.. oki then i went ahead with simon (aunt's cell ldr of agape ch) to agape church.. n started to prepare the stuffz there..hee'hee i forgot to bring the lighter which i m told to but heng heng got my bro to bring it over to me.. haha.. actually nothing much to do wan also lar.. then it is wait wait n wait liao lor.. they still got another yumCha session for the brides side which is for me n our relatives lar.. haha.. which in other words another angBao ;p oki then the church ceremony humph quite draggy sianz.. the BEST-man 3 of us seated by the side was having small chatty about this n tt to prevent ourselve from being too sianz haha.. hey hey did i say my bridesMaid partner was the prettieZt !! hahaha.. anyway she was suppose to hold my arm but she din.. ;p sianZ hahahaha.... oki anyway.. with my blazzer i m still cold inside the hall ..haha.. zhiYong the other best-man say tt he was hot.. oh -_-"' kinda unbelievable.. the 3 of us zhiYong, chris n me really had a gd time together sia taking photo n doing some stupid stuff haha so fun, in fact we r stranger b4 this day but we just got to click so well.. thank god.. anyway the time i had long been waiting for, the reception hee'hee hungry lar.! anyway had a gd chat chat with xiao yi.. my grand uncle's daughter.. erm yup she is my zhang bei but younger than me in age.. funni? i thought so too.. but anyway.. i nv call her ah yi tho hee'hee i just call her by her name or rather up till now i nv even call her name.. we started chatting just after a 'hi'.. oki tt's all for the church liao was already very tiring liao.. went back to uncle's place at st george.. then was so tired wanted to slp but not much time liao.. gotto prepare the shirt for the nite, my hair, need to bath.. n so many other things to prepare.. hiaz.. Bz bZ BZ bz.. oki the nite is impt so i took a whole lotsa time to prettiFi myself up.. took 15 mins in bathing? almost 30mins in doing my hair with GatsBy wAx.. oh the hair was did well tho the bad thing is tt i dun have a handheld mirror to see the back of my hair.. haha i spiked it as my aunt has requested to acc chris spikey hair.. then my shirt everything woW woW.. then the car is here to drive us there.. the dinner is held in the ballroom at laguna country club.. then we went to the suite room n it is BZ again starting from there liao.. began helping out with stuffz in the ballroom organizing the seats n stuffz.. well maybe due to it is in a country club n there are shuttle bus bringing the guest in they are quite early so guest began to fall in by 7pm but there are still lotsa late one.. then everything starts onli by 9pm (info from my uncle) i was b'z like wad liao.. my job? seating the guests, seeing my relatives needa entertain them abit.. writing down seems like not much hor? but doing it will make u sweat.. hiaz.. there was a bad planning over our side n end up my bro n i wasn't seated at the red table n also almost short of seat for some relatives.. hiaz.. anyway i was seated with other agape ppl hee'hee was treated well there HAHAH..! :p gotto know alot of ppl at tt table n alot about their church also.. hee'hee the dinner carried on with alot of yumSeng haha i was with the yumSeng bros n proud to say we done GOOD! haha.. the champange was nice.. yuM yuM.. well i ordered the red wine at my table n i thnk the champange was nice.. humph. hahaha.. not seated long at my table n was running around with the bride n the groom for their photo taking session with every table liao.. hiaz. worst thing i m suppose to dang jiu (*block drinks).. my yi zhang can't take in much alcohol so the 3 best man are there if needed haha but i din get to drink any also.. haha heng? dunno but rather lucky lar coz got 3 table bought martel leh!! crazy ah!! not drinking it on the rock will have killed my liver..! there was another table with two wine glass full of red wine but tt is kinda ok.. chris drank one glass n gary(*one of agape's bro) drank the other.. so me n zhi yong din drink any also hee'hee.. pai miah..! the agape sis & bro at my table was nice they left food on my plates for me so nice of them.."a BIG thank you to u all, terimah kasih" haha.. n well towards the end was more relaxing le.. coz not much of me showing face liao haha.. was seated at my table n hearing alotsa comments for me of coz.. wanna hear some? "u got a sunshine smile!" "wow, u r so handsome" (* erm this was from sis from agape..hee'hee was kinda shy to hear it) anyway there are some from relatives "wah! today so handsome arh" "wah u so tall liao arh, the last time i saw u, u were still a lill kido leh!".. haha.. told u during prev post le i sure stole alotsa glam le hahaa.. me too bhb le.. but at last the dinning hall is cleared then time to go home.. haha the bro n sis from agape thought tt i wasn't a christian n they kept asking me to go to their church.. erm i told them i m from renewal tho.. oki.. but i find some attractiveness in agape's youth, n a youth worker of theirs had so much exposure.. when we were chatting at the table *oh she was seated nxt to me onli* we had so much to talk and any topics ! .. wow ! yes a big WOW ! .. oki these dun make me think of changing church but a blessing which they had in their church would be a learning point for each individual that sees it isn't it? but to admit the young adults in their church really have the X-factor of attractiveness i m not saying about physical appearance but their warmneZZ welcomes n passion in faith.. tt's the attractiveness i m tokking about.. oki.. tt's all for the wedding sory peeps suppose to receive the photos via e-mail but hasn't reach yet so wait patiently ba. haha..

a long post about the wedding huh? yep yep.. tho b'z, tho a happy celebration of a union, but prob do arise from below.. oki.. tt's all for the wedding post.. me now gonna hunt for mump mump le.. HUNGRY ah!! eh ah Boi !! i still waiting for my BIG BIG cheeze log cake hor!

hoHOho..ho. joyous this nite will be.. dance with the rythms of the joyous x'mas nite `* `*`~** *``* *`

Here I Am @ 12/13/2004 10:51:00 AM

Friday, December 10, 2004

HiYa(o.o)

ohAyO.. yaWnz yawNz... argh.. it is friday morning.. now? dl'ing anime, bleach.. n erm nothing else to do le so came to blog.. hee'hee..

was on the bus.. n i saw someone like u at a bus stop.. i turned away after the first look and nv wanted to look again but... ..... i did turn around n took a 2nd glance.. wasn't u.. am i glad or am i sad tt she wasn't u? well i dunno about tt.. hiaz it has been 4 weeks after we ended.. time passed by fast.. saw ur msn online wanted to say a hello to u but hesitate.. hesitate thinking wad would tt hello bring about? y should i be bothered to say another hello? ............. the day b4 at nite was waiting for a fren at the mrt station n saw someone like u again.. ..... forget... have i forgotten? no i hadn't.. it isn't hard to forget isn't it? seeing someone like u brings ur memories back, hearing songs tt u like bring memories of u back.. i just hate one thing.. y hadn't i forget u? am i just escaping from it? nope i ain't.. it is a must.. ...... ........ wad if we see each other in the street?

~light in the heart~
that light in the corner it seems so familiar,
to the heart tt once felt it,
to the heart tt was once blinded by it,
summer rains fall but it nv washes away the memories u left behind,
wind blew to made me realise tt i m still breathing..
stand again, i will
to relise my dreams are waiting for me,
deep beyond the clouds ur smile shines on me,
and it haunts me with poignant sorrows..
to the heart tt once loved
for the heart tt once shared
with the heart tt was broken once again
i will have my blessing for u written on the moon, when u asked who cares?
may it shine to u like its moonlight, " i cared & will always be here"..

humph... ... feeling alright this morning just some thought running about in my brain.. yep yep.. yest was browsing thru the 'who lives near you' webbie and was viewing its kopiTiam *a forum* and there was this topic about a auntie begging for $5 or $2 around tamp central.. haha.. reaction from the peeps there are full of angers but kinda funni in how ppl will throw away their pride to disgrace themselves by begging.. ever wonder y din they work themselves.. yup tt thought.. hiaz... is it just how some ppl wants their lives to be? read an article b4 it says tt a fit young guy around his twenties is begging at a underpass in orchard rd.. humph wad's up with these ppl? just twenties n he is begging for $$... humph.. wad has this world become? had $$ became such a unbearable truth tt none wanna still work for it? of coz it is fact tt if u wanna be living in s'pore u need to have $$ when u want ur pride in this society u need to have $$ .. it is a difficult truth to accept but it is this society isn't it.. $$ had overulez humanities? nope it hasn't.. there are still ppl with hearts to share with them the little $$ tt they have.. but y? can these ppl just go begging forever? wad are they thinking? $$ is the hard-earned reward of a person, to share ur reward with someone who does nothing but just beg.. how many ppl are willing to do tt? .. when u r a dollar richer someone else is poorer by a dollar that very instance, that's how $$ are speculated.. poor ppl nv disappears till the very day rich ppl vanishes.. if u wanna survive u just had to learn to earn.. tho it means to rip of from another.. when u r rich it means to say tt someone out there is poor.. so wad u eanred is it urs? yes of coz it is.. but just share a little of it to those poor coz it was them tt u became rich.. wondering so should i be poor or should i be rich when i grow up? rich of coz.. but also as a blessing to those poor.. contradicting isn't it? life itself is contradicting i always say tt..

oki.. hee'hee yest nite was thinking of a fren i made 2yrs ago.. he is a blind christian met him at the concourse his name was coco i think it was his name which made me rem him up till now ba.. humph.. kinda forgot our conversation then but i will always rem the passion he had inside him for life for god.. he is such a living example.. life, mine n urs, everyone on earth, everyone has the same life the onli difference in it is the choices isn't it? mine is called life, urs is also called 'life', his, hers all r called 'life' aren't they..? wad makes life diff r the choices we made.. n in coco i saw a life tt has a meaning to fulfill, a passion burning, a concern for all tt crosses his path.. such a blessing he is to the ppl around him.. tho we din contact each other or anything else but it was tt moment when we crossed each other path tt one day i will search my memory to see tt there are ppl like him living..

oki oki enuff of my thought le shoo.. shoo... x'mas is nearing nearing.. humph sad.. no x'mas tree at home.. i still want my white x'mas tree hee'hee since last yr i had wanted to get a white x'mas tree le maybe nxt yrs x'mas i will have one.. yep yep i will get one white x'mas tree nxt yr x'mas.. n HAHA i made a big big demand to a fren hee'hee tt's a big cheese log cake..hee'ehee is there something like cheese log cakes? dunno leh.. humph i just LuV x'mas it is unlike other festivals where the joy will get bland.. dunno y it just refreshes each x'mas humph.. x'mas will be such a lovely nite.. if onli it snows in s'pore.. it would make x'mas PERFECT .. hee'hee..

oki.. enuff of blogging liao.. gonna go brush my teeth.. wash my face then prepare my shirts n stuffz.. coz tml is aunt's wedding le.. would be at my uncle's place for the next few days.. kk.. buaiz.. oh yep tml is mum's b'day.. we got her a necklace.. humph thought it was kinda nice.. anyway sis will settle everything.. hahaha.. oh yar still got sis b'day in 4 days .. humph haven't get her anything yet leh.. dunno wad will bro get for her.. humph.. i think for now better settle my own stuff first haha... buaiz..

HOhoHo.. dance dance shall we? my sAntAriNa.. my lovely night is snowing *`*~*``~**

Here I Am @ 12/10/2004 10:14:00 AM

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

hiYa(^-^')

had been down weak for the past few days.. well well well.. i m now standing, jumping, thumping, bumping, rolling.. everything except lying n resting.. so am i alright? of coz... haha.. miraculously..!

oki where was i during the last post?? oh yar the rehearsal, my aunt's wedding rehearsal.. erm quite stupid tho.. anyway was in agape ch.. in geylang.. hmm.. there is 3 best man n 3 brides maid WA! oki anyway there are numerous job assigned to all the best man n brides maid.. oki anyway.. i just felt tt the rehearsal kinda no point like tt.. at the end of the day i erm sad to say i dun rem the whole sequence at all.. hee'hee... anyway it is two days from now le.. haha..

oki.. today went to ch to help clear some stuff for a yi mai hui coming up this sunday.. humph.. saw thru alot of books n cds.. hahaha.. anyway.. i have with me a antique.. yesh! a antique.. dated yr 1922, month feb.. haha.. any guess wad is this antique? haha.. it is a book, Reader Digest dated February 1922.. WOW! found it in the pile of books i m trying to sort out.. of coz no one would buy this n suppose to throw away so i decided to bring it home with me.. n in comparison with that i brought along another Reader Digest dated December 1995.. haha.. hAlT hAlT!! erm as i was looking at my antique again.. i.. mm... i.. .. i... saw this paragraphs behind the book.. "This facsimile of the first edition of The Reader's Digest, which was dated February 1922, was printed in 1982, as part of the 60th Anniversary Celebration" -_-! so it isn't wad of a antique.. hiaz... hiaz... yi chang huna xi yi chang kong.. but anyway anyone wanna see tt copy can always call me up kk.. but muz come over my house to see hahaha... eh.. it is still a well kept antique of only 32 yrs.. hiaz.. n HAHA... but its contents should be similar to the copy dated 1922 wan ba.. so.. erm if anyone wanna know wad's the first copy of Reader Digest like.. well it is in my hands hahaha..

oki i paid up one of my phone bills le.. *HAHAHAHAHA.....!!* yep yep.. left with one which i dun even know how to clear .. hee'hee.. maybe santa will pay for my bills? heee'hee.. "SANTA... oh, SANTA..! do u know how to pay phone bills at the s'pore post?" .... haha how many of yer ever had a wish come true? ...

humph.... not much thing to say during this post.. anyway wave ur hands u ppl!, shout!, ring the bells!, light the torch!, let santa know u r here.. *winkZ* x'mas is nearing, i pray oh lord let the festive season be in everyone, the celebration of a new king borned 2000 yrs ago.. let us sing n dance for this is the day our king is borned.. Amen!

DaNce dANcE OH' yOu SaNtArnA, tHe Sn0W faLls t0ngHt & SaNtA cOmeS TuMbLinG DowN

HOhohohoho...

Here I Am @ 12/08/2004 04:48:00 PM

Saturday, December 04, 2004

hiYo(o.o)

"argh..! i m dyIng...... dyIng to get better..!"

woke up this morning to find myself sick just like the few days before... hiaz.. bad bad bad real bad.. got up from bed to get blood shot up my head making me blind n giddy almost fainted right on the floor.. n next XIE DU ZHI ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!! twice in the morning... argh.. muz have been those choc accumulated from the attachment till the fyp.. now they are out le.. argh.. sick sick sick.. wad could happen next?? argh.. im sick enuff already plz!!

argh.. later still got a rehearsal at my aunt ch for her wedding.. hiaz.. wondering if i should go.. dun wanna faint halfway there.. argh.. bloodshot can be real bad sometimes huh.. argh gonna take more beef for the time being.. hiaz.. x'mas is coming... mum's & sis's b'day nearing too.. gonna get a necklace for mum n sis.. humph.. will think about it later ba.. should get anything for aunt's wedding?? argh.. still got x'mas present leh..!! wah!!!!!!!!! *faintz* hey ppl wanna know wad i want for this x'mas?
here goes my x'mas wish list:
1) both phone bills cleared.. wishing tt the amount will disappear over the x'mas eve nite.. ;p
2) new hp... SE k700i, N6260.. !!
3) small x'mas tree.. hee'hee make sure there is present under the tree.. haha..
4) choc !! erm ... i will keep it till i m better le then eat.. hee'hee :p
5) brown DunkZ..
6) brown t-shirtz..brown shortz..brown sweater.. if dunno my size can come n ask me HAHA..
7) gundam seed vcd/dvd
8) gooD frenZ to spent the x'mas nite with.. be it watching the sunset till it rise again having bbq.. wow.. had been such a long time since all my buddiez had gethered together for a x'mas count down.. or even gathered to have a gd chat.. hiaz..
9) I WANNA WATCH POLAR X'PRESS..
10) cheeZe cakes to acc the x'mas nite.. yummy yummy..
11) santa to acc me thru the nite? haha.. i dun mind if it is a santarina.. haha..

hey! u.. yes yes u! the one reading my blog up till here.. u know wad i wanted for x'mas so better get ur lazy bum off that chair n give me a surprise BOO..!

argh as i was writing this blog i m running to n fro the basin.. throat is so full of phlegm arh.. but anyway.. i love x'mas
"Jingle bell Jingle bell, jingle all the way. Oh wad fun it is to ride on a one horse open sleigh....."
"Hark the Harold angels sing.. glory to the new born king....."
.... laLalAlaLAlaLalAla...*siao*!

humph.. how had i spent the previous x'mas?? erm....... oh yar watch a midnight show.. thought of going club but then thought tt it would be very full.. so caught a midnight show erm.. wad show was.. it? ... humph kinda forgot le.. i wanna watch polar x'press this x'mas... it is inside my wish list haha..

hadn't time flew past fast?
how many frenz had u made this yr?
how many frenz u lost contact with this yr?
how many frenz turned to become ur foes this yr?
how many ppl stepped in n out of ur life this yr?
i had this fren whom i met at the start of this year.. we start to know each other knowing tt she lives in tamp, knowing much of our similarities.. we lost contact awhile n we bacame close during june, got very very close towards sept n decided to sent my heart to her.. n now... we are strangers.. it was a short episode of life worth remembering isn't it? do we know each other long enuff? nope we dun, but there was this short miracle tt bought the both of us together..
isn't it a gd thought of how ur life had went thru tt yr..
a year isit short? nope..
isit long? nope..
it is just enuff to spend every minute knowing n sharing the one thing call love...

bro, sis, babes, dudes, bitch, jerks & aliens... share n spread love, it is pure, innocent, n warmth..
everyday in 2004 had made up a episode in the archives.. flipping thru the archives of my blog i see wad had happened thru this yr.. smiles, tears, rains, sunshines... all this had accompany me thru.. just too many things had happened this yr 2004.. to pack things up, i had grown in thinking, i did things tt i shouldn't.. n many.. hiaz.. wad a yr.. .... i love my life.. coz it is my life n i love it.. i love my father in heaven who gave me this life on earth, who grants me mercy n forgivence, who embrace me with his love, praises be to him..

next year? it is a new episode waiting to be written.. on the very day when we summarize our lives we will smile n say "this was how i had lived my life.............. n i love my life" a new yr needs a new resolution new aims new growth.. new people to meet new hurts new joy new happiness.. a new me to start a new year with.. ...

HOhoHOhoHOho...

Here I Am @ 12/04/2004 10:42:00 AM

Friday, December 03, 2004

helo(x.x)

two days after my visit to the A&E of changi general hospital.. wed morning woke up trembling with fever n chest pain then asked my mum to accompany to the hospital.. hiaz.. if it wasn't tt bad with fever n chest pain i wouldn't have choose CGH le.. tt A&E department is to wait till u r going to die liao then come over n save u wan.. waited for more than half an hour before seeing the doc.. but anyway the x-ray n ECG shows nothing wrong so it is concluded once again tt's the chest muscles prob.. was given muscle relaxants n another dunno wad... tt A&E trip cost me $65 n today i had the pain again... hiaz.. i m really wondering if it is really the chest muscle prob.. if it isn't then another $65 will be gone leh!! hiaz.. sianz.. told boss tt i won't be going down to work any sooner.. it won't be good if the pain gets any worst during work.. hiaz.. anyway mum n bro is down too.. mum with serious flu n bro with high fever yest went down to get a shot on his butt.. haha.. for me fever is gone but the chest pain is still there n today's wan seems bad.. argh.. wad to do wad to do?? pray pray pray..!! yep i had... argh.. gonna go rest more le.. byez..

Here I Am @ 12/03/2004 11:05:00 AM